animated world

tanggal 23 april 2010...
peristiwa yang akan ak ingat smpai bile2! arghhh~~!!! hmmm..
malam tu ade euphonius utp yg ke 5.ak semangat la nak p sbb nak tgok satu band ni je, band pdus, salmah n the swingers.

kisah nye bermula mcm ni..
lpas magrib, ak terus contact eik tanye kul bape nak p eupho tu. die ckp dalam kul 8 lebey.ak pn terus la siap2, lpas solat magrib terus shoot p bilik eik. dah masuk utp, kelihatan banyak kete dah start p ke chancellor hall. dlm hati ak, "ade lagi ke tak parking ni....". smpai bilik eik, die kt toilet lg. ade plak gitar kapok atas katil die, ape lagi, layan plucking lagu2 time ak form 4..another you,please dan beberapa lg lagu yg leh layan la. eik settle mandi, siap2, amek gitar, then kitorang gerak. ak pelik, awat eik amek gitar plak nak p eupho, "apahal ko bawak gitar ni plak eik?", lek je die jawab, "pdus nak pnjam". dlm hati ak agak pelik sbb pdus perform mlm tu takkan la takde gitar. tp nak sedapkn hati, ak pn pk la mayb pdus nak wat akustik nye performance ke..so ak pn let go la that tot. trun blok eik trus gerak p kete ak, kamal pn gerak skali ngn bag dslr die tu.

as expected, parking penuh, ak slumber wat parking haram area parking staff. parking bayek punya~! so trus cepat2 jalan ke CH. eik ckp bella suruh naik kat tangga 7 atas skali. smpai kt bella, ade plak problem, lampu hall gedabak besar blok view kalo kitorang duduk situ. so nak taknak, cari seat baru n jumpe seat kat hujung isle. tak kisah la, janji dapat duduk n dapat tgok..trus park baik kat blakang ade sebaris awek2 mude..then start enjoying the show. ak dah mmg niat nak tgok salmah n the swingers je. ade band lain yg not bad n ade yg hancus. MC plak boring gile.syok sendiri.itms plak mengong, ade ke time judge nak bg komen, suluh lampu dari blakang judge.mane nak nampak muke diorang! adeh (-_-!) time salmah n swngers perform, ak terkaku kut. sedap gile.harmony n smooth. vokalis plak mantap. si vokalis prmpuan ngn gaya manje2 n suara yg lunak. si vokalis laki plak, gaya suara jantan habes.sedap gile nyanyi.byk kali gak ak puji2. puas ati la pendek cite tgok diorang perform. worth of somthing la spent rm5 mlm tu. settle sume band peform, then 6ixth sense plak perform.ok la..not bad la diorang..takde boring sgt, takde best sgt..so-so.. mayb sbb ak just expect from band salmah je kut.so yg lain tak amek peduli sgt.prize giving ceremony, dah kompem2 la salmah menang...so settle bab eupho mlm tu..

kitorang pn trun , kuar CH, nampak plak noly ngah mcm tggu org kt tgh2 tu. panggil2 die, then die ikut kitorang.bella p kat die, n diorang ade bisik2 smthing, n perasan la noly hampir menitis kn air mate..dlm hati ak" aihh...sedih lg la tu..." tp nak wat mcm mane, ak pn mcm nak tegur pn jadi segan sbb ak perasan noly mmg mcm avoid ak for the past few days.ak pn pk postve je la, ye la die ignore ak sbb die bz ngn fydp yg gile tu. so ak pn let it go.then bella n noly dtg, trus noly "bergambar jom!"...kesian kamal..tak pasal2 jadi photog ktorang.ehe..trus la bergambar...tgh posing2, rashdan plak call.."azam, ko wat pe tu? ak nak mintak tolong sket ni. fiza tu, die kuar ngn sha kut p tasik tu.sha ckp fiza mcm kene gigit binatang or kene patuk ular mcm tu la.die nak call ko , die takde credit..tolong tgokkn die zam..tolong ek?" ak pn pk, hmm mayb btol kut ape rashdan ckp tu.ape yg ak kenal fiza tu, kepala die gile2 sket.kalo die nak wat mende tu, die wat je..tak pk sgt ape org nak ckp..so lpas tgkap gambar tu ak pn trus la p ke kete. otw ke kete tu, rashdan call skali lagi nak ingatkan ak..so ak pn start la bergegas laju2 sket ke kete..

masuk kete, start enjin, tak pk ape, vroom...bawak mcm org gile sket trus ke tasik...dah nak smpai pondok pak guard, then ak dapat call..suara mcm cine..speaking " hello! is this azam? your fren here is like dying..come faster.we all waiting for u!!" ckap laju gile..ak pn trus respond.."ok2!!! 1 minutes!", ak tekan abes paddle minyak ak tu..smpai je kawasan tasik tu, dari jauh ak dah nmapk mcm a group of people kt bawah lampu hujung sane. ak smpai2, tgok fiza tgh mengerang kesakitan.ngn kaki die kene ikat ngn tali pnggang.seyes beb, dlm kepala ak ni ak pk die kene patuk ular. dlm kepala ak"klinik mane nak hantar ni ek? utp bukak lg ke? ke nak hantar hospital batu gajah??" ak pn berlari amek kete..ak mcm perasan sket la, ak sorang je yg kelam kabut time tu..eik n kamal mcm berlenggang je.eik siap kunci kete ak lagi, adeh..ak amek kunci kete, then ngn slumber bawak kete trun kat tempat orang jog kat tepi tasik tu..trus bukak pintu blakang kete..(ngn kelang kabutnye la) ak jerit " wey, tolong r korang!" ade org respond" nak angkat mcm mane ni??" fiz plak bertambah mengerang kesakitan..ak dlm keadaan panic mcm tu, tak pk ape dah..ak trus nak angkat fiza, then time tunduk nak angkat fiza, trus berdas das..bertubi tubi rase kene pkul kat blakang ak..mcm kene blasah ni...trus ade org sapu baik punya tepung kt muke ak..DEYM!!!!!! AK TERKENA!!!! ARGH!!!! ak jerit. perghh...sangat tak caye ak time tu..ye la..seyes dalam keadaan cuak mcm tu, tertipu ak..ak percaya mati2 kut yg fiza kene patuk ular..pk mmber nye pasal..arghhh~~~!!! ak terkene~~~~~trus jadi pesta sapu2 telur n tepung kat muke..tak terkecuali la sape2 yg tak kene tu..ak cek muke noly bersih je lg...zrass, amek tepung, kejar die, sapu baik punya kt muke die..then pap, bella plak ade kat depan ak...zrapppp..muke die plak..eik dari jauh tersengih2...argh!! tak pedulik!! eik!!! ak keja die baik punya..die lari skejap then mengalah, ak pagi penangan tepung baik kat die..ehe..puas ati ak..



then settle berpesta tepung n telur, kitorng gerak ke pondok.diorang siap beli kek n makanan sume..sob n bob pn jadi dalang rupenye dalam prank ni..deym! mcm mane ak leh tak perasan..so ape lg, potong kek, diorang nyanyi lagu bday utk ak..then makan2...honestly,ak terharu gile kut ade kawan2 mcm tu..ak tak pernah kut di sambut mcm tu time bday ak.sbb ak jenis tak kisah, kalo ade tu ade la, takde pn takpe..rase sebak pn ade actually, tp takkan nak tnjuk kut..ehe =P ak kind of speechless. kalo ak boleh peluk diorang tu, ak peluk gile2..tp takleh2!! ahaha...=P then kitorang lepak kt pondok tu becerita...menyanyi...makan2...smpai kul 430 pagi kut..ade 2 group rakan masjid menyinggah. ye la paham niat diorang, so ok la.kitorang pn bukan ade wat ape2 pn..makan2 n bersuka ria.tau jaga batas2 nye.



kesimpulannye..prank ni almost flawless if takde mende2 kecik yg ak perasan mcm eik bawak gitar, eik n kamal noly n bella jalan belenggang time ak berlari mcm org gile..ehehe... tapi ape2 pn, amat berjaya prank ni..smpai ak tak sedar..mayb sbb ade rashdan n foreigner tu involved kut..ehe.sayang korang! aha..thanks alot.. =)

ak tak lupe tarikh ni..23.4.2010.. wait for my revenge~ =P

haiya~~nape la lately ni ak rase ak byk membunuh binatang ek..frankly, bulan ni dah 2 ekor, sekor anjing, sekor kucing.
alkisah...bermula nye kisah riwayat hidup anjing tu sejak +- 6 bulan lpas. jiran ku yg berbangsa cina baru je menetap di sebelah rumahku.hanya sekadar sambutan biasa je bagi kehadiran jiran baru sebelah rumah ak tu.osmate ku bertegur sapa ngn jiran baru and everything looking good la. 2 3 hari lpas tu, ttbe kecoh dan bising plak rumah sebelah ak tu.bising ngn bunyi anjing.ak pn cek, tgok2 mmg ade anjing,to make it worst, bukan sekor, tp 4 ekor.
then i start living beside hell. adoi, bayangkan la anjing tu 24/7 kong!!kong!!!kong!!!...ak nak wat keje tak senang, nak wat itu tak boleh, nak wat ini tak boleh! bukan setakat siang ak je die kaco time tido ak pn die sapu skali.kekadang hampir selalu gak la, kul 3 4 pg memekak melolong anjing2 tu.."adeh, ape masalah ko anjing oi!! sembelit ke!!!" monolog dalaman ku. so nak taknak, begitu la kehidpan ak for the past 6 month. nak dijadikan cerita, 2 mggu lpas la. ak petang2 mmg selalu trun sukan, either squash or badminton la. petang tu penat sangat sbb main dlm 6 set squash tu. so ngn penat, smpai2 umah dah magrib. ape lagi, rehat sat then terus mandi. settle sume, time nak solat, time tu la anjing tu start memekak..ak still sabar lagi..time tu sorang2 kat umah.. so abes solat, anjing tu still bising.anjing tu memekak mmg btol2 sebelah bilik ni, so u can guess wat its feel like kan..abes solat, mcm biasa, ak try nak abeskn mengaji ak, time mengaji pn still anjing tu memekak non stop dari mula ak solat.. betol2 ak rase uji tahap sabar ak.automatic ak bgun, ngn tenang nye bukak pintu gate umah then straight p kat laman depan umah, cantik je ade seketul batu.takde la besar, kecik je pn, tapi padat la.dengan tenang, ak tunduk, amek batu tu, jalan perlahan ke arah anjing tu, ak p sebelah gate umah ak tu. makin ak dekat, makin die bising la kan.sebelah umah ak tu plak gelap.tak tau la mcm mane, tangan ak mcm auto je bertindak. sekali hayun je batu tu kearah bunyi anjing tu. mmg tak nmpak sgt la anjing tu sbb die warne hitam and kawasan sebelah rumah tu pun gelap takde lampu.mmg baling berpandukan bunyi je la. sekali hayun, terus senyap anjing tu. tgok2 sket, mmg anjing tu trus menggelupur terbaring. terdetik rase bersalah dalam diri ni. perlahan2 ak masuk umah, tutup gate, trus menghadap laptop kat dalam bilik.

tgh layan2 fb, kedengaran bunyi anjing kesakitan, mcm bunyi nazak pn ade gak. bertambah kuat rase bersalah ak ni. ak takde niat pun nak wat anjing tu mcm tu. ak just nak bg anjing tu senyap n takut je. batu yg ak baling tu plak boleh plak masuk celah2 gate tu tanpa kene besi gate tu.waa..ak pk2 blk, mmg ajal anjing tu dah kut.so rase tak senang hati, ak trus start enjin kete, straight masuk utp dan pegi court badminton tgok mmber2 ak main.nak sedapkan hati ak, ak pk positif je la yang anjing tu still hidup.huhu...tp pada hakikatnye, ak rase dah mati kut sbb mmg dah smggu lbey takde bayang anjing tu dah.so adakah ak yang bersalah??ak btol2 takde niat langsung nak bunuh die...inikah yang dinamakan ajal?hmmm

satu lagi kisah baru je jadi tadi..
ak p main bowling ngn sekumpulan staff utp.di pendekkan cite, lpas bowling, kitorang trus la p makan..staff tu plak wat surprse kat ak dengan bawak kuar kek sebijik kat kedai makan tu, then diorang nyanyi kuat2 lg bday..adeh..segan gile ak..kalo la ade mmber yg kenal ak ngn ke"blushing"an ak tu, kompem tergelak abes dah tgok muke ak merah padam.then dapat la hadiah sket..ehe..

settle sume tu, ape lagi , jam dah kul 230pg, terus bergegas mcm berlumbe kete nak balik.ak mcm biasa la jalan lengang, 120-140 la jawabnye..tgh sedap bawak, lpas je restoran kelasik, ade satu jmbatan kecil, kt jmbatan tu gelap, ak plak tgh laju, jalan plak kosong..so relax je la ak bawak..tetiba, ade sekor kucing belang2 hitam putih teragak-agak nak melintas.die dah kat tengah jalan lpas tu, tp malangnye, die berpatah balik.ak seyes tak sempat nak wat ape, kalo ak twist sket stering kete time tu, kompem dah ade kat hospital dah skang ni.so takleh wat ape, rase bersalah gile time dengar bunyi,"kedeguk!" dari bawah kete ak.."arrghh~~!!! ,ak dah bunuh binatang lagi ke" monolog dalaman lagi...adoi...bersalah gile rase..ak tak sengaja...tak dapat ak nak ungkaikn dengan kata2....

tak tau la ape nak jadi lpas ni ngan nasib2 binatang di sekeliling ak...harap2 sangat lpas ni takde lagi kejadian yang melibatkan kematian binatang yang melibatkn ak juga..uhu

kesimpulannye...m i to blame?if yes, wat would u do if u r in my shoes b4 it happen....

yg rasa bersalah,
aku

hmmm...today bermula la kehidupan seumur 23...
23 for me is just a number.it meant nothing. but the most i treasure are the memories thats goes along with it. those are the main reasons that are responsible of who i became now. bitter,sweet,payau,masam2 memories sume tu is like the spices that has tot me a taste of life. there are moments where i faced the darkest ever story in my life and also the meaningfulness. pikir2 balik, memang ak dah berubah..yup maybe becoz im 23 rite now. but i think i starting to realized the importance of my life. bersyukur nye ak dapat hidup sampai sekarang. ak admit ak dulu memang jahat, terpesong, nakal and macam2 lagi. but hey, i have changed!, alhamdulillah~ =)
people may judge me on wat they want to think of me.mayb because of my past. its fine with me. i believed, people who know me well, they might think diffrently.in a good way la i hope.ehe..
ape ak perasan skang ni, ak memang selesa ngn kawan2 sekitar ak. sume baik2, understanding, and takde la kaki yg mengajak ak wat2 mende yg tak sepatutnya la.im grateful for that. =)
nak berubah tu tak susah sebenarnye kalo kite betol2 ikhlas. tapi ak ni kekadang semangat gile, bile dah buat2, kekadang rase mcm hangat2 taik ayam pn ade gak..but that is my weakness that i can address here n i want to change that. keep on improving myself for the better goods.my social life, i think im fine with it. not feeling lonely because i always have frens that i can rely on..thanks n alhamdulillah~ =)
sometimes i think that the world is very cruel place to live in. used to think that this world is not fair. ye la, yang senang berbahagia, yang susah merana. bersusah payah kite berusaha, but for the small returns. hardship and all are always loyal to accompany me. as time goes by, i realized, its all ujian yg Tuhan bagi untuk menduga sejauh mane ketabahan and kekuatan iman ak. satu demi satu obstacles Dia turunkn kat ak.there is a time when i felt really2 down.but now i believed, in all things or ujian or anything yg Tuhan beri kt ak tu for a reason. setiap ape yang terjadi mesti ade hikmah nye. Die turunkan kite hujan ribut sume sebab Dia nak bagi kite matahari.so what i want to say is, always bersyukur dengan ape yang kite ade.yakin ngn sepenuh hati yang masalah tu ujian untuk temukan kite ngn sesuatu yang lagi baik.=)

ape2 pn..syukur alhamdullilah sbb im 23 dah..
and tak lupe to all my frens yang wish and concern bout me..thanks korang! =)

ckup la kut for this post.huhu.. ngantuk~ (-_-)Zzzz

when people heard about the "master" word, sudden burst of Whoa straight coming out from their mouth. not enuf with the sound, their face expression also changed. somehow i got a feeling of proud, tipu r takde. i felt like an eminent one.aha.. but the truth is, it is not as beautiful as it sound.
now im in my 2nd semester doing master in IT n aku specialize dlm kejuruteraan perisian. sound weird isn't it? ok la, software engineering. aku skang fokus more on the mobile learning technology where i really2 believe that this field is vast enuf for me to xplore and maybe someday, InsyaAllah, i will be able to create my own technology for the benefit of others. buat master ni pun, aku memandai propose topik yang orang tak pernah wat lagi. bunyi mcm gempak kan? but, terkangkang2 beb wa nak siapkn mende ni..start feeling that i'd dug my own funeral, tggu nak masuk je.uhu
honestly speaking, at first i tot master is about a lil bit of research and siapkn project yang kite propose. but the fact is, thats only bout 40%. wats important is, the research elements and the contribution that we did to the society. the bigger the contribution, the better la of cos. and to mark ur existence as a contributor in the research, well u have to publish your paper or research and present it mostly during conference. the more people recite your paper, the better it is. so thats a bit of Msc thingy.
bout my routine as Msc-ian, lately dah start rajin la sket sbb ye la, dah 2nd sem kut. Supervisor dah start asek mntak progress je memanjang, tolong tak, tp name nak..aih..takpe la, nasib badan. think on the bright side, at least i got the chance to train myself to be independent.it is good for me to experience all these thing now because it wont be the same for the next time.
bangun pagi, pegi lab, wat keje smpai lunch, then after solat sume, kalo rajin tu ade lagi, stay la kt lab smpai petang, if tak, di atas tilam masamku la jawabnye sambile ditemani lagu2 indon, tak pun instrumental rock..
petang plak, wajib sukan, ye la kene la balance kan..takkan nak jadi mat geek lepak menghadap laptop 24/7. kalo petang tak main squash, malam kompem badminton..kalo time tu rase mcm perut tu besar semacam je, kompem main dua2, squash petang, mlm badminton..gile arh! aha..(tp tak kurus2 pn~~)
time weeken plak, biasanye cari idea or plan ape2 la utk kuar dari kepompong utp yang agak bosan tu. mcm p wat keje jalan2 jauh2 sket, kalo rase gian nak memekak , cari mmber trus shoot shogun batu gajah.dengan erti kata lain, Karok!!! that's one activity yang kompem leh lupekn sume masalah2..aha..kalo rase duit tu mcm  ade terlebih sket, p la ipoh tu...mengahadap mende yang same for the past 5 years...tak bowling, muvi...
sound boring kan? but wat to do...life as "pelajar", nak taknak , still kene keep on going. setahun je lagi zam insyaAllah~ come on!! ehe
im kinda missing all my batch frens la..Jan05. diorang dah abes, and now kurang dah kawan mcm dlu.terasa gak la mule2, but as time goes by, im ok with it. try to cope in watever coming in my way. now, memang totally different la. my frens also become older kat sini, ye la kawan ngn lectrer, bbdak phd or master yang older than me la. but somehow, i find it best. they are more matured, im not saying my frens are immature, but the way of they behave is different. you got wat i meant rite? and for my master, i became a lab tutor for Distributed Computing subject. its really2 fun interact with them.i teach and at the same time i also learning back the subject.ye la, dah nak dekat 2 tahun kut i left that subject. kompem la banyak lupe. tapi ape2 pn, i managed to abeskan lab tu. even tho sometimes ade gak la rase malu when there are questions that i cant answer. but overall, i did my best..=)

so kesimpulannye, thats my Msc life in utp. banyak lagi actually, but ape2 pn, u got the idea of my life in utp rite now. i think ckup for this post, lain kali merepek lagi..ehe
adios amigos~!
=)

yolla~!